ang isang lugar sa kalye ng espanya....

may isang lugar sa espanya ng kung tawagin eh... Mayric's... bar un, so nung unang punta namin dun... xempre "oi pare... ayus ah... college na ... yehba!"..... dun ako lahat nag umpisa.... buga.... lagok... pero di lang un eh.... damn di ko alam.. ang isang mainit na lugar... lalamig din pala... sa kakatawa... kasama ang asteeging tropa! hooo! ok!!! potah...... sarap pumunta dun potah lang tlga!! yehba!!!....... eto...
*sorry kung kulang ah... sira ulo ako ngaun... pag andun naman tayo asteeg naman eh di ba hahaha
D AB BABES>
betsy... aeya.... viel...crizzy..... sino pa ba... ahemm...
D ARCHI BOYZ> ryan....mao......jopet....billy.....manny...chris...andrei....mark...chichan....west...jk.......miggy.... D ARCHI GIRLS>
aren....dada....tanya....aina....fritz.....carla.....cheche....
UST BOYZ-AH!!>
arbi.....rc.....aj.....plong.....avior......mikmik.....
Collegiate TROPA KABOOM!! hooo! OK!!!>
cid...chuchay....

-kung kulang man... sorry na.... tropa pa rin :P basta yan ung mga laging andun...

as i was saying... lahat na nangyare dun..... mga una..... cguro mga huli na rin.... taena dun nga ako unang... lumuha para sa isang tao sa harap ng tropa eh! wabooooo!!! hoo! ok!!! pero ayus lang un... un na nga ung ok dun eh.. sila naman kasama ko... anyway.... ang saya lang kase sobra dun.... lahat dun damayan parang tanga lang eh.. kung baga... "no words can describe the feeling with the people around you" sabe ko nga... dun sa mga ang tingin eh bar = masama... "it's not the place, it's the people around you that makes the place worth going to.." naks english.... bkt ba potah.... senxa na sa inyo tng ina ang "emo" ko daw eh... pero one thing clear.... "emo" bang masasabe kung ilabas mo ung totoong meron sayo? hahahah potah eto nanaman.. pero seriously, emo nga ba un? kase... one thing i hate the most.... is kaplastikan... so i really don't do cover ups... na kung badtrip tago tago... except kung personal na problema... akin lang un.... itatawa ko na lang... pero... ah tama na...

back to mayric's.... grabe... kung pwede lang ilapit ang canada dito sa pilipinas... gagawin ko potah.... kung kelan nagiging strong na ung tropa... kung kelan nagkakapalitan na ng laway.... ay mali.... kung kelan pala everyone counts as pamilee... dun pa umeepal ang eroplano, visa, bahay, at putang inang migration na yan.... bkt ba..... pinoy ay pinoy! wag nyo ngang gawing canadian! para kayong gago eh...... di sila canadian bacons! pinoy longganisa yan! tanga!!!! ahhh ang sarap mag mamaru ... blog ko naman to eh bkt ba....

anyway.... last messages bago ako mag ano.... para sa mga on-pro-b.... personally, tutulong ako whenever i can, basta ba career mode eh.... cge lang tsong..... andito si Masked Rider™ hooo! ok!!!.... para sa mga aun..... eh di masaya di ba? kita kits sa sembreak.... para kay.... eh aun.... -alam mo naman eh.... kaso un na ung masakit dun..... alam mo na.... at wala akong magawa.... naunahan kase ako ng kaalaman sa pagkakaibigan eh... kaya ayan, ni kaibigan man lang di ako makatungtong... oh ma gad... losir ka tsong!!! tae!!! hooo! ok!! yehba yehba!!! -tanong nila: mahal mo na ba? -sagot ko: di pwede eh, kase di ko xa "kilala"... hindi nya rin ako "kilala"... wala na rin atang pag asang mangyare un di ba.... *di sa emo, kayo lumugar sa kinalalagyan ko un din mararamdaman nyo, tng ina dapat d na lang ako magaling makiramdam sa tao eh.... fuck fuck fuck tlga pare......

all in all, masaya ang mayric's, i call it "our home" they call it "hell" pero one thing for sure, andun kame..... masarap pumunta dun nakikita ko xa, at the end of the day, mas masarap, kase nadadagdagan ung reasons na alam ko na hindi tlga magiging maganda ang ending namin, for me nga lang..... pero what the hell di ba? mas gusto ko naman na tropa kame, mahusay pa.... bday pa nga eh.... soo happy birthday!!! yehba!! hoooo! ok!!!......

-there's a fine line between wanting to have you and wanting to be with you, and i'd rather be with you without the joy of having you...
- napakatotoo nyan! hooo! ok!!! cge buh bye.... pakyou kayong lahat... para naman may nagbabasa eh no...

UST.....

New things:
>Friends...
>Friends....
>Assignments.....
>Professors...
>Classrooms....
>Environment....
>Life Style....
>Challenges...not hardships...
>Goals... not hindrances...


Old things:
>My Life...
>My Frustration...
>My Losses....
>My Never ending defeat in the game of love...


one thing i learned...

Fate never fails me at all, fate always gives me a great burden i can't take, that it crushes me in the process, where demons that laugh at me became the only companions i have, being lonely in hell... no wonder....
Fate would always greet my life with a blood shedding of my eyes... bleeding to death as i wonder about how can i love her....
Fate always brings me to hell and back, just the heck of seeing me getting bored of the same old sights of my plain life, without a smile, without color, without my love one....
Fate showed her to me, like a child dreaming for that toy he saw in the glass case, meaning he can't have it for his own, just for him to see it everytime he goes to the toy shop, he would always just dream about it... like a star you admire, but then can't reach... if begotten by dream too much, you'll get burned for wanting someone so much....
Fate taught me lessons in life, pretty explicit that i embraced it so much it destroyed my whole self, the lesson? No blessing on earth can compensate the loss a hundred fold, if the loss is someone you trully love, cherished, and cared for....
Fate introduced me to the things i never knew existed.... Sorrow, Grief, Anger, Envy, everything...

in simple terms... I H-A-T-E F-A-T-E with every anger i can unleash, with every hate i can give, with all my sorrow to share with it.... FUCK FATE....

A-S-A

asa hahahahha

Ayoko na........

ano ba ginawa ko, ano ba talaga, hirap na hirap na ako, di naman ako pumatay ng tao para magkaganito ung karma sa akin... hindi ko sinasabeng di ako dapat makarma, kase may mga atraso nga naman ako...

pero bkt ganito, buong buhay na ako nagdudusa, di pa ba sapat un? pati ngaun, sa araw araw na ginawa ng Diyos kailangan ko maghirap?

oo na, panget na ako, lahat lahat na, kesa maitim, mataba lahat na lahat lahat na! putang ina sabihin mo na lahat mukha na akong tae, dura, sipon kahit ano! pero puutaaa... ano ba ginawa ko para pag laruan mo ko ha? nagpakatotoo ako sayo, totoo ung nararamdaman ko sayo... tinapon mo lang....

tapos ngaun, out of the goodness of my heart, mas gusto kitang maging kaibigan kesa mawala ka sa akin, pero ngaun, ipinapamukha nyo na, wala talaga akong kwenta...

nalaman ko pang crush mo mga pinsan ko, di ko tuloy maiwasang ipagkumpara ako sa kanila... tng ina wala nga naman talaga akong kwenta...

oo cge, inaamin ko, wala nga naman talaga akong kwenta...
pero PUTANG INA, TAMA NA!!! NAKABAON NA AKO SA LUPA, DI KO NA KAILANGAN NG DAGDAG NA HIRAP ....

parang awa nyo na.. di ko na kaya eh, napaka walang kwenta ko na nga.. ginaganito mo pa ako...

sana lang, mahanap ko ung hinahanap ko sa mundo, kung bkt nga ba ako pinanganak...

para lang ba maghirap... o para ba ako sa isang tao....

bahala na, kakayanin ko na lang to.. kesa magpaka bakla at mamatay di ba? di ako magpapakamatay kabaklaan un tang ina nyo hahaha.....

another post for another day

ang dami kong ginagawang kabulastugan, isa na to! hahaha

ito ung mga future line ups ng UAAP 2068:

UST Chicken Hawks
La Salle Swimming Monkeys
Ateneo Flying Dumbos
UP Drinking Fountains
FEU Long Necks
UE Starfish
CEU Eating Kangaroos
NU Burning Negritos
San Beda Red Eggs
Mirriam Yum-Yums
St Scho Kulasang Bruskonians
Don Bosco Balasa Boys


ok tapos na ang kalokohan....



yet another day pasts, i feel fucking empty, and i don't know why, i am sure of myself, i got over her, but is this an after shock of what happened? or is it just another one of my misguided imaginations? i prefer to be called insane or crazy, than to be called a loser, though i am all of that, i learned one thing, "i'll just love football and academics and my family, they won't leave me what ever i may look, what ever i do, instead, they'll be the ones that love me the most for who i am, i won't love anyone anymore, i did it in the past, and now what did it do to the present, it just destroyed my convictions as a person, but it also made me look in one direction, towards my ending, i hope, but doing so, she could be the most successful person in world, hahaha" *these are my exact words the night i was thinking about it......

every now and then, i tend to lose my sights on myself, but thank God i have football and my family and friend to still keep me intact, maintaining my sanity chained within me....


sa mga ulol:

eto kayo ----> ,,l,,(-_0),,l,, >:)

mga unges ano kayo mga kabayow? hahahahaha

CHIIIIICKEEEEEN HAWKKKK-AAAAH!!!!

mahal ko xa... pero hangang saan?

mahal ko xa, pero hangang barkada na lang cguro, hindi ko na pwedeng i push through pa un, kung ayaw niya tlga sa akin, di ko na pipilitin, kahit masakit, mas asteeg naman kung kasama ko xa, magiging masaya na rin cguro ako kung masaya xa sa taong mahal niya, hindi ung sinamahan niya lang dahil sa awa.........


mahal ko xa.... pero hangang dun na lang cguro...

requiem....

i loved her so....
i kept her dearly....
i cared for her....
but was it too early?
is it my fault?
or is it just destiny?

she left me...
i wondered why...
but whatever reason it maybe...
i think it's just, that she left me...

if she didn't leave me...
i may not have learned this lesson in my mind...
not only in pure trust and love you can be happy...
you should be responsible, always consider the mind, not only the heart...

though i really miss you...
there are still things that shouldn't be....
and i'm going to ask God....
being you and me, should it really be?

if it should, i'll be willing, with a smile on my face...
and with a glad heart, i'd do anything...
but if shouldn't... then let's just leave it as it is...

though you didn't know
and i didn't had the chance to say to you personally....
i want you to know..
that i love you so......

so many questions in my mind...
but no one to answer them....
so many puzzles....
no one solve them....

if i only had that something...
i really think you wouldn't have left me...
but just look at me....
i am not worth it to keep at all....

considering that, i only blame MYSELF....
for not being what you like....
for not being who i should be in your thoughts...
for not being the best for you....

but then, if someone i love doesn't like me for who i am...
i think that is just something.... real...
that we reall aren't meant to be.....
damn it....

they say nasty things about you...
i say just leave the topic....
in my heart, after all that, there is still a part that say "ouch.."
but then, remembering what happened, that was still the worst...


hey, i really do love you...... but who cares...

Ulol

weh yo de potah! nakita ko nanaman ung hayup!!! gedemet nakakapikon na!! potek naman!!! mang iiwan sa ere tapos papansin ka ngaun!!! leche ka~!~~~~~~~